Severin...

... You are here, and you are perfect.



We had an appointment with our midwife on Friday and she told us that if you didn't come on your own over the weekend, we would talk about induction on the following Monday. I left a little disheartened. I was just so ready to have you home with us - I didn't want to wait any longer!

But lucky for us, you decided you didn't want to wait any longer either! I started having contractions that night. Your dad timed them for about four hours before we decided it was time to go to the hospital. That was around 3:00 am. They kept me in triage for several hours and made me walk around to try to get things going faster. By the time I couldn't continue to walk through them, they decided to admit me officially. I grabbed a quick shower and they said they wanted to start me on pitocen. I'd heard scary things about that, so when they asked if I wanted an epidural, I jumped at the chance! And oh, after a full night of pain, no sleep, and no food, that felt like heaven, little boy! Your dad stayed right there with me the whole time, and I know it about killed him, but he held me through the scary epidural, and held my hair when I got sick (he doesn't do real well with that stuff, ya know), and he made sure I had everything I needed and was as comfortable as possible.



I assumed we'd get to rest for a while at that point, but unfortunately we started having trouble with both my blood pressure and your heart rate. So they gave me medicine to speed up both, but then they got too high. They wouldn't let me turn over without permission, and even then, not without help. That's about the time I started throwing up. I was hooked up to more machines than I could count, and just felt miserable. It seems like that stage drug on forever. But finally, you decided you were done messing around and it was time to push! Daddy stopped everyone for a moment so he could pray over the two of us. I started at 6:35, and at 7:39 you were born... and you were perfect.



Initially, they were going to take you right away to get you all cleaned up, but as soon as I saw you, I told them I wanted to hold you.



I loved you more than I ever thought I could love anything.. even more than I thought I would the whole time I was pregnant. You were perfect, and I was overwhelmed.



We've been home with you for about a week now, and every day we fall more deeply in love. We become more amazed. We marvel at our new little family. We don't know what we would do without you now. We pray that we'll always be everything you need us to be. There's nothing we won't do for you.

We love you, our precious, perfect Severin.